Sunday, June 14, 2009

LOST


I hvnt blogged for a really long time. Past year has been awful,starting with chicken-pox,break up, downhill performance in final year,no clue bout future,dropped an year,fucked up life badly n after all dis,here iam in Hyderabad,pursuing mba from a sad place( ICFAI business school,many wont hv even heard d name..iam sure).

Well, wht do u do when all d chances life gave u, were messed by you...i guess u dnt complain then and that is wht I hv learnt so far in life…never complain bout something u messed up urself.

But wht cn I do??? Iam just lost in my life,just wish there ws more to wht iam doin nw…just nt able to relate whts happenin in my life. Seein ppl around me makes me jump my ass off a mountain. Everybody out here just competing fr everything…be it to book a busticket to city,eating in mess n most importantly CLASS PARTICIPATION.

Yeah, just try n sit in my class once…u’l knw wht iam talking bout…ppl just hv to blabber something fr a A garde…dey dnt evn knw wht they r after. Just open up book,read d chapter that’s in d session plan, cram some jargon frm book,without even relating to real world n throw it at teacher, ohh yeah, I forgot d most significant part…”DNT LET ANYONE ELSE HAVE A SAY”. Sitting,in the class I just keep staring d teacher concerned…iam amazed and amused. He puts in so much effort in something, which has no meaning fr anyone in d class…wht everybody is after is- D FINAL ACT…PLACEMENT. Iam lost in my thoughts, tryin connecting all the random threads to form a coherent and meaning full song…my LIFE SONG( which I hv lost fr some reason).

Iam have been really upset with the college, expected so much more…I just have to live with it fr atleast 2 yrs nw. and d sooner I realize dis better it is fr me.

P.S.-dnt think iam all defeated in life,iam tryin to fill in all d gaps…n iam sure,in a matter of few months, I”l be on my track,till than will hv to live with LIVE BLUES.